Plagued By Dumbasses

July 11, 2016

I don’t remember how to be Gwen

Filed under: Uncategorized — by gresmer @ 9:20 pm

Today I dropped Pearl and Miles off for their first day of summer camp.  And by day I mean half day.  And by half day I mean 2.5 hours.  2.5 hours is half a day according to the city of Toronto…interesting.

The kids have never been to summer camp before.  I have always entertained them in the summer but this year I thought we could all benefit from some outside help.  So this afternoon I delivered them to the appropriate room in the chosen city community centre at the specified time.

They were so excited to be going to camp.  Pearl misses school and this was a bit like going to school so she was excited.  Miles has never done anything without me except stay at the gym daycare and so he was a little nervous but excited to go and relieved that Pearl would be with him.  I filled in the appropriate forms, kissed them goodbye and left them laughing and playing.

I was about a half block away when I realized I was nervous.  Not for the kids but for myself.  What would I do?  Where would I go?  How was I going to fill 2.5 hours for 5 days?

After taking a stroll I found myself at a toy store picking up stuff for our cottage vacation.  While shopping I kept feeling like something was off.  Where were the questions?  Where were the little hands that try to touch everything?  Where was the whining about it taking too long?  And as annoying as those things usually are to me, I missed them.  I am so used to having a child by my side that I have forgotten what it is like to navigate the world without them.  I have been so busy being Momma that I have forgotten how to just be Gwen.  I actually felt uncomfortable today just wandering around by myself.  It was such an odd feeling.  Most days I am desperate for a little quiet time but today the quiet seemed deafening.  The kids were kind enough to make sure there was no more quiet for the rest of the afternoon.  🙂

 

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